I wrote this one angry night and I’m not sure how I feel about it now.
I guess it was kind of poetic…
Usually I’m angry at myself but sometimes I look at the people around my head and get angry at them instead.
Angry, because I wish they could see how lost they are. But mostly because I want them to see how vile they are. How wrong they are about everything. How regret-worthy, immature, and nauseating their actions are and that it reeks like old garbage and you never quite get used to the smell.
But they go on with their lives as if they never hurt anyone. As if they were never the reason for a good friend’s tears, or a friendship broken. As if they are absolved of the need to say the words “I’m sorry” honestly. As if forgiveness is the one thing that we cannot ask for.
I want to spit on the stigma that saying sorry is a weakness because it is nothing if not a strength. One that is apparently less in demand than that which is a real weakness, pride.
Look at all of them. Too pathetic to have ever uttered an apology to the ones that they owed it to most.
All the neglected apologies that would have once given their hate-stricken souls a little soap to make them more human, those apologies mold into grudges that never should have existed and I will never forget that the apologies that might have been for me, for us both, have instead become another monster of self-conceit and arrogance that convinces them never to say the soul-cleansing words “I’m sorry.”
the phrase “curiosity killed the cat” is actually not the full phrase it actually is “curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back” so don’t let anyone tell you not to be a curious little baby okay go and be interested in the world uwu
Blood is thicker than waterThe blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.
Meaning that relationships formed by choice are stronger than those formed by birth.
- entering a warm room after being out in the cold
- peeling off your socks after a long day
- the “boom” in your heart when you hear a firework explode
- having someone brush your hair
- the buzz of your fingers opening a package you’ve been waiting for
- writing with a new pen
- the funny feeling in your stomach when you see the sun outside your window and realize you’ve stayed up all night
someone: so what do plan on studying during college?
me: i’m likely going to major in Mathematics and minor in Zoology, with a specialization in variations of domestic habits within the formidicae species particularly native to California